When Zombies Attack!
Lets take the possibility that a plague will turn most of the world' s population into zombies. What would you do? Well I for one have a plan. To most of you this more then likely will not come as a suprise, however I feel that I should share my vision for my personal survival in the unlikely case of a zombie attack. Here it goes!
Well for one I would make sure I have a copious amount of Ramen, mountain dew, and water. 'Is that all?' you may find yourself asking. No my friends, it is not. Assuming I have the few loved ones and my family in safety, I would also have a substantial supply of laxatives. *gasp!* Laxatives?! What type of crazy shit does my white ass have planned for laxatives and zombies?! Well I'll tell you my friends, however it is nasty, immature, and extremely juvenille. I'd shit all over the bastards from the roof. The laxatives would ensure that one not only would I be extremely dehydrated but my ass would be exploding like a fire house set upon a hay barn engulfed in flames. If I'm going to die, I'm going to have fun before death comes for my number.
Now onto my current life seeing as I don't talk to most of you anymore. Whether it be from my own personal choosing or from your own. However the details do not need to be discussed because frankly I don't give a damn. I only seem to care anymore about a few carefully or randomly selected people/things. I'll begin with the most important revolution of my thought, being, and life first....Whitni. As a few of you know already everything I claimed in the past involving my fucking mistake with Alicia has been contridicted. I couldn't be happier. I am so happy I was wrong! That doesn't mean my relationship with Whitni is the easiest thing in the world without worries, hassels, headaches, or general stress. Because it is the hardest relationship I've ever been in. I couldn't ask for anything else honestly. I don't know why but she's exactly what I need in my life. It's inexplicable and you probally don't understand but once again, I don't care. I've made so many friends from this relationship, I've found someone who makes me want to prove myself once again. I have changed so much as a person in certain ways, it makes me appreciate the hardships that life brings.
I plan on leaving you all around summer time. I know most of you don't give a damn and that doesn't bother me in the slightest bit. I know I've never been the best person. I've fucked people over...I've done some pretty nasty shit. And for those of you who I've hurt, I do apologize. However I cannot change the past. My life is nowhere near perfect and it never will be. I can accept that and embrace it. I say bring it and I'll shoot it down and shove it right back where it came from. That is my new philosphy. I don't know what I'm going to do in regards to the rest of my life, I don't know who or what I want to be and in a way I'm glad its like that. I just know in order for me to get on with the rest of my life I can no longer be tied down by the constraints of what ifs, old friends, and family ties. Do not take that as I shall forsake all my friends and family because I can assure you I would never cut ties with the latter. But the rest shall remain up to the future. I cannot forsee exactly what will end up happening but I know without taking hardcore risks I cannot move along in life.
This brings me to my recent decisions. To those of you who question my jumping in head first into my current relationship, question yourself not me. I have been through enough to decide on my own what will help me grow as an individual. Whitni is the best thing to happen to me in awhile, not only do I feel appreciated on the level I need to be by her, she unconciously is helping me immensly by being there and showing me that my own problems pale in comparison to others. My problems now have come strictly from my own decisions. It was my decision to ask Alicia to marry me, it was my decision to move out, it was my decision to move my life in the direction it is moving, no one elses. To my dearest Whitni, you are the perfect piece of imperfectness to fit into my abstract, ill-cut, and poorly defined personal puzzle. For that I could never be more thankful or happier. You could be the final piece to the unfinished puzzle that is my life, you are my Penguin, but only I can complete me. Please do not take that the wrong way. I'm unsure if that even makes sense. I love run-on sentences. Fuck syntax.
Life goes on, I'm glad I finally accepted that. Lately I've been seeing questions involving changing one aspect of the past. I realized I would never change my suicide attempt. Granted that put alot of people through some stuff that they should have never been subjected to, however never before have I had something make me realize just how much the little things matter and most big things are pointless. It also made me realize that ending your life with the reason being another is not at all worth it, and if my will ever breaks again no one other then myself will be the reason. I don't see that ever happening.
Now to Alicia. I hope you realize exactly what you've done. And I hope that you've learned as much as I have from our past together. If I ever choose to cross your path again, with me being currently dead set against it, I do not know the outcome. I can honestly say I don't know who I fell in love with when I fell for you. And I do hope I am wiser from my own mistakes and from yours as well. I wish you a happy life for you and the ones you love.
I apologize for the lengthy post and I don't want anyone to think that this was typed depressed or for anyone to be brought down from my words. Words, thoughts, decisions, and beliefs change. Sometimes with reason but most of the time without. I bid you all goodnight~
Well for one I would make sure I have a copious amount of Ramen, mountain dew, and water. 'Is that all?' you may find yourself asking. No my friends, it is not. Assuming I have the few loved ones and my family in safety, I would also have a substantial supply of laxatives. *gasp!* Laxatives?! What type of crazy shit does my white ass have planned for laxatives and zombies?! Well I'll tell you my friends, however it is nasty, immature, and extremely juvenille. I'd shit all over the bastards from the roof. The laxatives would ensure that one not only would I be extremely dehydrated but my ass would be exploding like a fire house set upon a hay barn engulfed in flames. If I'm going to die, I'm going to have fun before death comes for my number.
Now onto my current life seeing as I don't talk to most of you anymore. Whether it be from my own personal choosing or from your own. However the details do not need to be discussed because frankly I don't give a damn. I only seem to care anymore about a few carefully or randomly selected people/things. I'll begin with the most important revolution of my thought, being, and life first....Whitni. As a few of you know already everything I claimed in the past involving my fucking mistake with Alicia has been contridicted. I couldn't be happier. I am so happy I was wrong! That doesn't mean my relationship with Whitni is the easiest thing in the world without worries, hassels, headaches, or general stress. Because it is the hardest relationship I've ever been in. I couldn't ask for anything else honestly. I don't know why but she's exactly what I need in my life. It's inexplicable and you probally don't understand but once again, I don't care. I've made so many friends from this relationship, I've found someone who makes me want to prove myself once again. I have changed so much as a person in certain ways, it makes me appreciate the hardships that life brings.
I plan on leaving you all around summer time. I know most of you don't give a damn and that doesn't bother me in the slightest bit. I know I've never been the best person. I've fucked people over...I've done some pretty nasty shit. And for those of you who I've hurt, I do apologize. However I cannot change the past. My life is nowhere near perfect and it never will be. I can accept that and embrace it. I say bring it and I'll shoot it down and shove it right back where it came from. That is my new philosphy. I don't know what I'm going to do in regards to the rest of my life, I don't know who or what I want to be and in a way I'm glad its like that. I just know in order for me to get on with the rest of my life I can no longer be tied down by the constraints of what ifs, old friends, and family ties. Do not take that as I shall forsake all my friends and family because I can assure you I would never cut ties with the latter. But the rest shall remain up to the future. I cannot forsee exactly what will end up happening but I know without taking hardcore risks I cannot move along in life.
This brings me to my recent decisions. To those of you who question my jumping in head first into my current relationship, question yourself not me. I have been through enough to decide on my own what will help me grow as an individual. Whitni is the best thing to happen to me in awhile, not only do I feel appreciated on the level I need to be by her, she unconciously is helping me immensly by being there and showing me that my own problems pale in comparison to others. My problems now have come strictly from my own decisions. It was my decision to ask Alicia to marry me, it was my decision to move out, it was my decision to move my life in the direction it is moving, no one elses. To my dearest Whitni, you are the perfect piece of imperfectness to fit into my abstract, ill-cut, and poorly defined personal puzzle. For that I could never be more thankful or happier. You could be the final piece to the unfinished puzzle that is my life, you are my Penguin, but only I can complete me. Please do not take that the wrong way. I'm unsure if that even makes sense. I love run-on sentences. Fuck syntax.
Life goes on, I'm glad I finally accepted that. Lately I've been seeing questions involving changing one aspect of the past. I realized I would never change my suicide attempt. Granted that put alot of people through some stuff that they should have never been subjected to, however never before have I had something make me realize just how much the little things matter and most big things are pointless. It also made me realize that ending your life with the reason being another is not at all worth it, and if my will ever breaks again no one other then myself will be the reason. I don't see that ever happening.
Now to Alicia. I hope you realize exactly what you've done. And I hope that you've learned as much as I have from our past together. If I ever choose to cross your path again, with me being currently dead set against it, I do not know the outcome. I can honestly say I don't know who I fell in love with when I fell for you. And I do hope I am wiser from my own mistakes and from yours as well. I wish you a happy life for you and the ones you love.
I apologize for the lengthy post and I don't want anyone to think that this was typed depressed or for anyone to be brought down from my words. Words, thoughts, decisions, and beliefs change. Sometimes with reason but most of the time without. I bid you all goodnight~
5 Comments:
I appreciate your maturity concerning the responsibility of your actions. Bravo, and then some.
<3 Mols
PS. where are you going?
I concer with Molly. That took so mighty big balls of you and I appluad you for that. While I have yet to meet this Whitni person, I can tell that she has certainly changed you for the better. But now I must voice my concern. Not at your relationship but as to your future. Where are you going next summer that would require you to say good bye? I know time and circumstance have seperated ourselves (Mainly MY Time and MY circumstance) But I would rather this not be the end of what has been a steller friendship. But if you find that by seperating yourself from all of us you can become and even better person, Then I can't stop you nor can anyone else. Just know that no matter what, I support whatever decision you make.
for some reason i feel that a person cannot really change their ways, old habits die hard
I feel sorry for someone who cannot believe in others. I do not know who or what you are referring to however I do know people our age change in almost every single way while finding who they are. And if I cannot believe someone else can change then I cannot even start to believe in myself. Old habits may die hard, but they still die.
I agree with the thought of you moving forward, and not holding onto the heartache of the past. I agree with Sean Mac though, when I ask where are you going this summer that requires you to say goobye to those of us that are staying behind. I have a feeling of what you will say, and it worries me. Granted you are jumping way beyond head first into this relationship with a person you hardly know, but if it makes you happy that's all that really matters. I just hope that when you see the changes in you that you don't push away the wrong people just to let the people she has in your life take the places of us there first. I sit here today, and I see the changes.. Some are good, you're definately more independent and vocal in your opinions.. But I also see changes that have changed you and I don't really know if I would concider them good, or bad. I suppose that is where you say you don't care. I miss you. And I miss the friendship we used to have before this.. I want it back. You were there for me when I've needed you most, and I was there for you when you fell apart... don't push me away.. please?
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