Here's to You

Just to forwarn you this post is quite possibly going to be depressing. As of today "Mickey" is gone. The fact that he is gone doesn't bother me so much as the fact that he won't be the same upon his return. I fear that when the time comes for us to be able to hang out and be close again, it will be the same as when we started being friends over 4 years ago. Don't take this the wrong way. In no way am I mad or upset with him for his decision to go into the Navy, as it was his and his alone. Nor do I resent him for it, I just miss him terribly.

I sat in my room today cleaning up and as I put some of my newer DVDs away I thought, 'I can't wait for the second one to come out, Nick and I could watch it!'. Only to realize that it won't be a possiblity for up to 4 years. Now I could be totally wrong about this whole thing, I pray I am, but as of right now I feel like this is the end until a begining anew. A feeling of loss where there is no loss. I really wish I had talked him out of it, but on the other hand I respect him deeply for doing something no one really wanted him to do. No one wanted to see him leave when he had such a future ahead of him without the military. He had the courage to do what he wanted to do, and what he thought was right. That demands respect. I will miss him deeply and I do hope him the best, I just wish it didn't hurt to quasi-lose a friend. Here's to you "Mickey"!