Sorry To All
I want to apologize to all my friends for putting them in the situations I did. Though I do I have some clarifications to make on my actions. I did not slit my wrist for attention or to make Alicia hurt. I really don't know why I did it. I stopped cutting and called for help because I didn't want to do it. I also didn't have someone call people and although I do dislike how he went about calling everyone I still appreciate what he did for me with all of my heart. So I'm sorry if some of you thought it was a prank or just me trying to get at Lisha, because it wasn't. I would never do that to someone I love. I would also like to apologize to Frank for always lashing out at her even when it is deserved. I shouldn't do that and I sincerely apologize.
I have done some horrible things but I do ask for you guys to bear with me, this has hurt more then anything in my life. It's not just something that one can be expected to "walk away" from or to "let it go". People who insist on that immediately should probaly go fuck themselves, take a moment to put themselves in my shoes and think about it. I mean for heavens sake how many of you have had a fiancee leave you? I apologize for being harsh but I am typing how I feel right now which some of you may have forgotten but that is kind of the point of the blog. I wanted to thank everyone who has helped or tried to help me with this and has offered their advice and or time.
I am still deciding on the actions I'm going to take with my life and I may make myself pretty sparce in the coming weeks. Though I'm pretty sure I'll be around on the blog at least. I really haven't sorted out the thoughts and typed them as they swirled around in my head. It may be 8am as I type this but that's past my bedtime. So I will revisit this later maybe when I awake before work or after work tomorrow. Please leave your comments, even if it's just yelling at me.
I have done some horrible things but I do ask for you guys to bear with me, this has hurt more then anything in my life. It's not just something that one can be expected to "walk away" from or to "let it go". People who insist on that immediately should probaly go fuck themselves, take a moment to put themselves in my shoes and think about it. I mean for heavens sake how many of you have had a fiancee leave you? I apologize for being harsh but I am typing how I feel right now which some of you may have forgotten but that is kind of the point of the blog. I wanted to thank everyone who has helped or tried to help me with this and has offered their advice and or time.
I am still deciding on the actions I'm going to take with my life and I may make myself pretty sparce in the coming weeks. Though I'm pretty sure I'll be around on the blog at least. I really haven't sorted out the thoughts and typed them as they swirled around in my head. It may be 8am as I type this but that's past my bedtime. So I will revisit this later maybe when I awake before work or after work tomorrow. Please leave your comments, even if it's just yelling at me.
posted by Betty at 8:25 AM
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2 Comments:
Ryne, i just read your blog, i know we havent talked in a while. But i just want to say that im sorry youre going through this. If you need anything, just IM me anytime or call me, i dont know how much help i can be but if you do call me, i hope i can help you! I cant imagine what youre going through, just dont start slitting your wrists again. That worries me, i mean, we were once friends (dont know if you still consider my a friend or not but . .) and i care about my friends. So just if you EVER need to talk you know im here for you, ill IM you my phone number if you need to call.
Sorry again about everything,
Tosha*Eaton . .
why do you apologize? i am a firm believer in that, more often than not, people are unaware in what they do when they hit the bottom. it's not an excuse, it's just the truth. don't apologize for reacting the same way that everyone else has reacted for the past centuary, just recognize your mistakes and work at fixing it all.
--mols
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